23rd already !! or is it about time ??
So this is a special blog.. it’s about me turning 23!
See I don’t know though.. this year, it just feels like it passed by all too quickly. And this birthday came along unexpectedly. It’s like I was in the middle of all these life issues and I woke up one day and what do you know.. it’s my birthday tomorrow.
For one thing, I don’t have anything planned yet for tom. But what’s more important is when you reflect back on this year and say.. ok so how did one whole year of my life go by?
Well it’s really not an easy question you know. I mean don’t we all hate it when others start to question us on how we made use of our time. But how is it when we ask ourselves this very question? Will we lie and pretend we had a nutritious year? Or will we face up to the facts and honestly state our opinion of how really this year passed by.Well, in this blog, I’m gonna step up to the plate and state how did 2005 go for me.
If I was an outside observer looking down on AL and watching him all along this year, I’d honestly say he’s made quite a lot of improvements most of which are personality-wise. So if you take, for the sake of comparison, me when I was a fresh graduate and where I am right now, I’m pretty sure you’ll notice the huge difference in the way thinking and behaving. Not only did I become more responsible, my relationship with other people, including my family, has become steady healthy and full of love and respect. Some friends confirm this to the point of questioning whether I just hit puberty this year lol but that’s just nonsense .. hey DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! :)
So with that said, I think I can safely say that in my 23rd year, I’ve been good to my parents, friends, and coworkers and I’m proud of that. I love ‘em all very much!
But that’s not everything right. This next thing I know many of you are tired of hearing me talk about it but let’s face it does change things drastically. Yeah the car! I mean come on ya’ll remember the first time you took control of a vehicle that was all yours to play with. It did feel great didn’t. It opened whole new set of possibilities for you. And that’s exactly what it did to me. Although I just acquired it recently, it has managed to make me feel lot better about myself and also be of use to others. Now I take some load off my father by driving my little bros back and forth to school. I run family errands every once in a while. I run my own errands for god’s sake. And although the maintenance costs are quite demanding, I’d say it’s worth every penny because it does makes me feel good about myself.
While that fuels my self-esteem, what brings it down is the fact that I’m no where ahead in my career than I was a year ago. I mean sure I’ve gained a one year experience, but that’s about all. Just work experience doing the same thing I’ve been doing for a whole year. Actually, in terms of where the project is, we’re back in the first cycle or so of the same project that I’ve been working on this whole year. It really is frustrating. Lots of project management mistakes were made that I just have to put up with.
And that’s why I came to the conclusion that in my current company were business is conducted in an ad-hoc fashion, what I’m really supposed to do is to prepare myself for the next opportunity which is supposed to be a well-established international company that does business the way it should be done! YEP! that’s what I really should be focusing on and this is where I’ve slipped this year. I’ve always had this plan and stuff but I didn’t do anything about it.
So I guess what I’m saying is that if I’m promising myself something for the next year, it’d be to simply CARRY OUT YOUR FREAKING PLANS! Damn it, when did I learn to be this lazy. See, that’s one of the most important things to get rid of next year and I honestly hope my next bd’s blog will check that off the list. I’ll be working towards that.
To conclude, I’d say it’s been a wonderful year, with lots of ups and downs, tries and tribulations, happy and sad moments. But I believe I have the potential to make my 24th rather more productive and worth-while. Dad’s always said to me: “You have the potential for much more”. I believe that heart and soul, and I’ll prove it this year. Nop.. that’s not just a blog talk, It’s gonna be translated into actions and ya’ll will see :)
Happy birthday me .. love you all .. please stay in touch coz I’ve lost enough friends and I don’t wanna lose you now.
Peace
